Gabbie - About life and love
For everybody out there... You are beautiful. Accept who you are because there’s no one like you in the entire universe. You are unique. Look at the mirror. Look how beautiful you really are. Comb your hair. Take care of yourself. You are all that you have got in the world and you deserve more. Stop underestimating you. You can laugh and be happy –really you can- and not feel guilty about it. Embrace life, embrace your own self. It doesn’t mean that you’re getting self-focused or selfish by putting you first. It means that you respect yourself. Stop relying on others to validate you all the time. You are not a hollow human being. Fill the gap with love. Love you. Only if you love yourself you can find true happiness and eventually make the others around you happy too.
I remember myself when I was 14, after the first interview I had for a model agency. The day that changed my entire life.
I was standing in front of the mirror. I was looking at my idol reflecting itself. My hair looked tangled. I had bags under my eyes. My skin looked pale. I looked tired. I was tired. Tears were falling from my blurry, red eyes. “Look how much weight you have gained! You look fat… You are ugly… I hate you.”
“Why don’t you love you?” My inner self asked me with sorrow. I was unable to answer that question. “Why don’t you love you?” The same persistent question come again. “Why do you keep doing this to yourself?”
Then I thought...
“You don’t love you. How can you do that? You are hard too on your own self. You didn’t treat you right. You were too demanding, always expecting more. You were very cruel. You didn’t forgive yourself for anything. You always took the blame. You were -are- too harsh on you. Constantly apologizing to everyone about every little thing, it didn’t matter if it was your fault or not. Filling yourself up with guilt. Swallowing your pride, lowering your head. Saying yes to everyone, in order to please them -every single one of them; except you. You only use the word No, to yourself. No, when you feel too happy, no, when you feel too relaxed. You punished you enough. You let people manipulate you and criticize your every move. You let them do that to you. You tried to seem worthy so that everyone would love you. And you forgot one important thing.”
I should have loved myself first. I was probably not the only one feeling like this. All these years I realised that nobody is perfect but imperfections are beautiful. That’s how and why I am an alternative model. I do it for fun it makes me smile... modelling was not for me.
For everybody out there... You are beautiful. Accept who you are because there’s no one like you in the entire universe. You are unique.Look at the mirror. Look how beautiful you really are. Comb your hair. Take care of yourself. You are all that you have got in the world and you deserve more. Stop underestimating you. You can laugh and be happy –really you can- and not feel guilty about it. Embrace life, embrace your own self. It doesn’t mean that you’re getting self-focused or selfish by putting you first. It means that you respect yourself. Stop relying on others to validate you all the time. You are not a hollow human being. Fill the gap with love. Love you. Only if you love yourself you can find true happiness and eventually make the others around you happy too.
That’s why you find it difficult to trust people. That’s why you feel lonely. Accept who you really are and allow yourself to take one step at a time. It’s going to be a long but fulfilling journey. But we can do this, together.
Take a day off, you are allowed to do that. Enjoy the rays of sun touching your face. Feel the wind and smell the fresh air. Go and see that movie that you wanted, buy those shoes that you had your eyes on. Be good to you. Pamper yourself.
Forgive yourself…
Today 7 years after I stand in front of the mirror. I have combed my tangled hair. I have splashed some cold water on my face. I have wiped my tears and I smile. I have made a promise to myself.
I’m not perfect but I’m going to love me; I’m going to love me more.
And that’s a promise.
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